Ketamine

Question: "Is it really unsafe to combine ketamine and MDMA?

Erowid's Answer: "... Because of the legal and social issues around the use of illegal drugs, there hasn't been much research done on the practical implications of various drug combinations. We can't say that the moderate combination of ketamine and mdma (ecstasy) is safe, but we can say that we have heard many reports of individuals using this combination in a manner similar to what you describe and we haven't heard of any significant physical risks with it."

     -- "Ask Erowid Answers"
https://www.erowid.org/ask/ask.php?ID=141



"It's true, like nothing I have ever done before. I'd recommend anyone to try it at least once, simply for the pure mental expansion it has allowed me to adopt, and for the weirdness of the entire experience. It takes your body and mind, and launches them beyond the human imagination and what it is normally supposed to accept, providing an interesting and unique trip and offering perspectives I will probably have never encountered otherwise."

     -- "Christopher K-lumbus"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=66301

Opium

"Smoking opium may seem mild, but that is merely part of it's seductive dance, it is no less addictive than any other opiate. Some believe that since opium is natural it is some how not as bad for you. I myself believed this too.

It's far more fun to use this drug sparingly, for after time, it is no longer a fun high and becomes something I need to use just to function."

     -- "Mr Frog Falls Victim to Addiction"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=47061



"A gentleman whom I met at my faculty told me, casually, how easy it was for him to access opium and that opium was for him and the members of his community almost an article of first necessity. He could get me some any time I wished. I was surprised and I thanked my fellow student for his offer.

Still I let some time go by before deciding to enjoy the experience. A very old acquaintance came to the UK to spend a few months with me. This was the perfect occasion."

     -- "Killing Off the Superego"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=27346



"The pipe went around and I took several hits. It didn't taste like hash, or smell like it. Expecting to get a hash high, I was surprised to discover that I wasn't getting 'High' at all. I commented that the hash was kind of weak and was informed that we were smoking Opium.

They looked concerned, but I didn't care and told them so. As a matter of fact, I felt decidedly tranquil and sober at the same time. Unlike the highs I was familiar with, Opium seemed to leave the thought process intact, as if at baseline. But it had a profound effect on emotion. It ELIMINATED it. I had no emotion at all. Not happy. Not sad. Not nervous. This lack of emotion left the mind clear. I was perfectly content to stare at the wall and be blank. Most drugs provide escape from reality by altering the perception of it. Opium provides escape from it by removing all concerns about it.

I didn't notice any strong physical effects. No buzzing, no spinning or dry mouth. As a matter of fact, I felt completely capable of doing complex tasks like driving. It wasn't the deceptive confidence of alcohol, but the true, intact baseline ability to do those things. Stripped of emotion and anxiety, I could concentrate better on the tasks at hand. Perhaps at a higher dose this ability would have been impacted.

The woman mentioned that she had been binging on the stuff for two weeks by then, and that she didn't think she could stop. The tranquil, emotionless feeling lasted for perhaps 6 more hours. There is a definite comedown though. I began to feel a pain in my lower back and a low grade headache. Most frightening however, was an urge to do more. It seems so gentle and mild, that it was hard to believe that this drug generated millions of 'opium fiends' over the years. It is hard to imagine that something so mild and gentle can wreak utter havoc with your body after a short while.

It's deceptive."


     -- "Deceptively Mild"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=36619

Synthetic Cannabinoid Overdoses

AM-2201

"I loaded everyone a hit roughly 10-12mg. Using the same pipe, B hit it first, followed by J, D, P, and then C. ... A minute after they took the hit, 3 of my friends, J, D, and P all dropped to the floor. They were fucking blacked out cold. J was screaming and acting psychotically, screaming at the top of his lungs[] ... He was thrashing about uncontrollably, slamming his head into the wall several times. D was out cold, hitting his head on the floor his breathing depressed and heart rate increased. P fell onto the couch and started shaking so violently it appeared to be a seizure. A few seconds later vomit erupted from his mouth and I had to slam him on to his stomach on the floor.

All 3 of them began vomiting and had trouble breathing. ... I ended up calling my best friend for backup, as this entire experience was a train wreck horrible and terrifying experience. He said he could hear screaming from way out in the parking lot of the complex."

      -- "The Night I Killed My Friends"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=89294



JWH-210 

"I decided to lay down in bed and wait for effects to decrease. I was very afraid my wife would come in the room where I was lying down because I knew she would know something was wrong with me.

... The next thing I knew I was pounding both my fists on the bed and kicking both my legs and I was screaming like a maniac. At this point, I was completely gone...as insane as someone can get. I only remember bits and pieces, but I remember being on the bed laughing and screaming like mad, and I remember thinking someone would call the cops but then in my mind it did not matter because I was feeling this intense emotion and energy that seemed to defy time and one second seemed to last an eternity. ...

Next I awoke in the hospital.  ... They told my wife that my pulse was very weak and blood pressure very low and that there was a good chance I would not make it. I am very lucky to be alive and hopefully no long-term damage."

     -- "Research Chemical From Hell"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=96836



JWH-018

"I felt like I was entering one of my limbo-like states where everything in a 2 or 4 second elapsed period would loop itself seemingly endlessly. ...

... then all I remember was feeling like I was flying downward, as if falling from a great height, down through the floor, and a sensation in my skull like someone tapping my chin with a sledgehammer ever so slightly. Then I started seeing these color-changing balls of light, bouncing with the beats of the hammer on my chin, falling down a never-ending staircase, and suddenly realized I was in some kind of coma-like state. I could think, but could not see anything or hear anything other than what I described here. I began to feel terrified that I would be in a coma for the rest of my life and never wake up. I began to not want to wake up, for if I did I'd be in a world of shit for it with the police, the school, and my parents. ...

I couldn't think at all toward the end of this weird trip, which I later found out to be a sort of epileptic seizure, which I am now prone to while/after smoking JWH from now on. ...

One of the EMT's took my vitals and noticed my heart BPM of about 220, then he shot me with Valium at least 4 or 5 times in the arm, trying to get my heart to slow down. ...

I eventually calmed the fuck down and was released from the hospital after one of the scariest most fucked up days of my short life."

     -- "Feeling Like a Vegetable"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=96204



AM-2201

"I wake up, rolling around the family room of my house. My shoulder is fully dislocated, and I am utterly TERRIFIED. I guess 'wake up' is the wrong term. I was definitely having some form of seizure. ... I was completely convinced that I was a SKELETON, and my bones were all dislocated and I was paralyzed. I distinctly remember looking to my right and seeing my pelvic bone, covered in blood, lying a few feet from my head. ...

I am pleading with my parents to put my body back together. (At this point, my parents told me that my eyes were rolling back in my head, and I was thrashing about violently while screaming at them to help me.) My dad is holding my bones together so that I don't fall apart. ...  I told my parents that I loved them and that I'm sorry I killed myself like this.

By the time the paramedics arrived, every muscle in my body was rigid as a board and I thought I was paralyzed. ...

... I cannot imagine a more psychologically damaging experience resulting from drug use."

     -- "The Night My Brain Caved"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=92954



JWH-018

"... I'm twitching uncontrollably, imagine having a seizure, that's how bad I was twitching. I try to lay down, maybe sleep can help, I twitch more and more when laying down, can't be still. I sit down, nope, same thing except not as bad but still extreme. ...

... I was happy beyond belief when I realized I was alive that morning. ...

... I remember reading about JWH-018 being a full agonist for the CB1 and CB2 receptors and THC just being partial, I understand what that means now..."

     -- "Entering Hell"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=97905



AM-2201

"The intensity began to build and I felt shocks build around my body. I started to believe I would soon have a panic attack if I let go... So my mind was trying to hold onto life as much as possible. As the trip deepened I began to hear my conscious separate from the rest of my mind. ... My body began to shut down or so it seemed but I strived with all my being to live. My conscious voice began telling me that no matter what I did, it would result in death. ...


... Almost 12 hours later my ego is shattered, destroyed, raped, and murdered. I can't believe I survived and would never wish anyone to experience this type of trip with AM-2201 or anything else for that matter."

     -- "The Final Maddening Space btwn Life and Death"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=94563

Fentanyl

"It seemed to me I hit the lottery, and decided, WHAT THE HELL, let's do this motherfucker...

I wake up in the hospital with a syringe of saline in my right arm, in a nurses gown, hair smelling of vomit, and the absolute worst chest pain I have had. I fall asleep.

I am woken by a nurse offering me water. It turns out I had overdosed on both substances and had to be taken by paramedics.

I get a call on the hospital phone from S, my boyfriend, crying and telling me how my lips were blue and how he had to do CPR on me until the paramedics arrived.
Well, that explains the chest pain."

     -- "I Wake Up in the Hospital"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=110284



"I found an empty 100mcg fentanyl patch after seeing one in my mom's trash bag the other day and decided to chew it up. I cut it up into four equal sized chunks and began chewing. I noticed the familiar warm fentanyl drift feeling. I put a pizza in the oven and sat down to pet my dog as I felt waves of warmth shoot up my hands and feet.

The next thing I know I'm waking up to a paramedic's face and flashlight inches from my face, a bag valve mask literally pumping life back into me with a tube down my throat. My ears rang, I was completely deaf and confused, I went into and out of consciousness on the way out to the ambulance and breathing became a conscious effort for me.

Luckily it was christmas eve and my parents walked in about 30 minutes later to find me dead on the floor. Not breathing, no pulse. My dad administered chest compressions and I'm not sure why I'm not in a coma or dead right now. Instead I'm sitting here typing to you a little over 24 hours since it happened. My dad saved my life, no doubt."

     -- "I Died on Christmas Eve"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=98718



"I am writing to express my freedom of speech; to inform and educate. On July 16, 2003, I found my 18 year old son in his bed, he had died in his sleep. Much to my shock after reading his computer entries, he and his friends had been experimenting with many of the drugs that he found listed on this website, but DXM appeared to be his drug of choice. It appears through the information left behind on his computer and the autopsy report, that on the night that he died, he had mixed DXM and Fentanyl. This was a talented and intelligent young man with many artistic gifts, but with many questions about life. I feel that he had carefully studied and calculated, but there are no guarantees. I want other kids to know that a fatal outcome is a very real possibility; it may happen the first time, or after several successful and uncomplicated trips. There were no warning signs; no chances to help. I grieve every day for this very tragic loss and want others to know that their choices affect them and the people who love them."

     -- "Mom"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=28810

Solanaceae Plants

"... I looked at myself in front of the mirror. I knew it was me at the mirror, but I felt as if that guy wasn't me... as if it was a different person, with different feelings that was looking at me. I laughed at that feeling but the reflection didn't... I got close to the mirror, but the reflection didn't move a single centimeter."

     -- https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=1239



"Never once as I talked to her did I get the feeling that she was 'tripping' so much as she was delusional, but she was so calm that unless you listened to what she was saying, you wouldn't have noticed."

     -- "The Manson Family Killed on this Plant"
https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=18736



"... of all the drugs I’ve used belladonna was the strongest and most terrifying. I would never recommend this plant to anyone who doesn’t want to wipe themselves out to the point of dying. It wasn’t ‘trippy,’ enlightening and fun. It was the most horrific experience I’ve ever had."

     -- "Screaming Voices"
https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=52478



"That night has haunted me for the past 6 years. Even though I have a husband and two daughters I'm still freaked out by it.

As others have written, I don't recommend this drug to anyone.  Whatever it is you're trying to find you can find without it, within yourself and this world.  Don't die trying to find life. "

     -- "Forbidden Fruit"
https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=57200



"Upon my arrival at my house I walked in without a shirt on and my roommate asked me where it was. I argued with him for almost a half hour that I did have a shirt on and I was scraping the skin on my chest and pulling it out thinking it was my shirt. Not until I looked down did I realize he was right. This was around 11 p.m.

Around 1 a.m. my roommate came into my room to find me throwing things around and smashing them and he proceeded to ask me what I was doing. I told him I was fighting someone and to help me. ...

Around 6 a.m. my roommate told me to fix breakfast, thinking the trip had worn off. I took a silver cake mix bowl and filled it full of milk, then stuffed an Alcopolco (a Mexican type of blanket) into the bowl and started to eat it with a fork and a knife."

     -- https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=50223



"I don't know if I believe in Hell, but if there is one, this realm surely has some kind of correlation."

     -- https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=92059



"While I struggled to relieve myself, wobbling back and forth, kneeling pants-down next to the toilet, [my two friends] L and S came in and started talking to me. This seemed really weird, considering I was half naked and in the process of peeing, but whatever they were saying to me seemed real and coherent enough that I continued talking to them for about 15 min... As I started to stand upright and pull my pants up, a black cat ran from the hallway into the bathroom jumped over my feet and into the shower. I remember telling them what I just saw and both of them started laughing at me and told me I was crazy and just hallucinating. Turns out both of them were hallucinations. ...

... I grabbed the glass of water and was about to drink it but as soon as the water hit my tongue I realized I had grabbed a plastic bottle of isopropyl alcohol. ...

... After L left, S decided to go to the library. She was very concerned for me and asked me if I would be ok to be alone in the apartment. At some point that morning after L left, she told me that for about 6 minutes I was walking in circles in the bedroom with my hands clenched in my hair yelling repeatedly “MAKE IT STOP!” I told her I would be ok and that it would probably be best for me to be by myself...

...almost every 15-20 minutes I would hear the door slam open, and hear L yell from the other room; “Matt… Matt.. You home? I’m back.” I would come into the front room and see him standing in front of the door. As I continued talking to him his voice would fade out until only his lips would be moving with no sound coming out. Then gradually he would slowly fade into the background and dissipate. ...

...I would be holding the cell phone talking to a friend in New Jersey while I laid on my bed. Every time I noticed I had no cell phone in my hand, I would still hear my friend’s gargled voice continue to talk to me."

     -- "Talking Pillows"
https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=37029



"Next thing I know its already 6:46am and I am running late. My mom tells me I only got a half hour to get ready or ill get a Saturday detention. I scramble out of bed and run into the bathroom to take a shower. I suddenly realize how mush school’s gonna suck cause I forgot to do my homework and I have an oral presentation due today. All these thoughts make me panic and I know there’s no way out of it cause I already skipped school 3 times this year and got caught and I cant skip another day or I have to go to court. I get out of the shower and dry off as quickly as I can. Then I run into my room and get dressed and go downstairs to the kitchen. Right then I noticed something was wrong, the clock said 1:00am and the calendar was on July. No body was up. My mom was asleep and had been asleep. She didn’t wake me up for school, I did not have school in summer. I wished I was dreaming, and the thoughts in my mind were on the brink of driving me insane. All I remember after this is running back up into my room in total panic ready to cry and scream and if one more weird thing happened I was gonna commit suicide."

     -- "Truely the Devil's Weed"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=16996

Tryptamines

4-AcO-DMT overdose

"Time was extremely dilated. I checked my phone after what seemed to be an hour or two, only to find that a minute had passed. It was at this point that I realized I was going to have a long night. ...

... Everything was one, there was no such thing as a 'difference'. I was on a higher plane of existence, a plane shared with higher powers within the universe ...

... It literally felt like I was in this state for thousands of years, if not infinite years."

     -- "Vastly Unprepared"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=94917



DPT overdose

"... the three of us simultaneously snorted the powder.

It felt like a needle frozen to absolute zero penetrating my nose a thousand times, then a cold tremor slowly spread through my body from my nose to my fingertips. It felt as if I were falling into ice water nose-first in slow motion and the entire room violently shifted and trailed off. A feeling of the most profound unfamiliarity spread through my mind, body and soul and I waved my hand in front of my face to test the visuals. I expected some trails. Instead I saw an indescribable number of solid versions of my hand, slightly overlapping each-other, plastered across my vision. The hands proceeded to fractalize into infinity, with far too many iterations for my mind to process.

K and I looked at each other and, while English still existed, I screamed 'what the fuck did we just snort!?' And we both leaped for the benzos that were sitting on the table. Some cosmic entity must have judged us for our cowardice and the table simply melted away before my eyes. I'm still not sure whether or not we took the benzos, but after this I was confronted with a horribly mutated, distorted version of myself. The changes in my body somehow represented my naiveté and fear and it disgusted me. It said 'drugs...' and the word was repeated infinitely until all connotations were stripped from the sound, and then the peak began..."

     -- "The Process and the Infinite Oneness"
https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=92869

Psychedelic Overdoses

AL-LAD

"This is the story of a mega-overdose on AL-LAD, in which I accidentally ingested somewhere between 1.8 and 2.3mg of the substance. I wouldn't be surprised if this is the largest dose of the drug any human has ever consumed... If you've taken more I'd love to talk to you."

     -- "Massive Accidental Overdose"
https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=102145



2C-P

"Among other chemicals they also sent me a mislabeled batch of 2C-P...

One warm summer’s evening I found myself without much to do, and decided to give the chemical I expected to be nothing more than another mildly underwhelming stimulant a go. In reality I started the evening by ingesting 70mg 2C-P on an empty stomach...

The trip lasted over 30 hours, 24 of those at or beyond at a barely controllable level or way beyond that. The night was chaotic and apocalyptic. I did not sleep and was heavily disorientated. No music, no light, the visual and auditory distortions grew too intense to comprehend any external input anyway...

I loved the moment the sun came up. I spent dawn naked on my terrace. The world around me looked like a churning and swirling Van-Gogh painting -only much sharper, more precise...

After those incidents I was at a juncture: either quitting these types of experiments altogether or continuing them in spite of having felt what the slightest mistake or careless oversight can cause. I chose to continue, but I am compulsively sticking to a long list of safety measures designed to spare myself and my loved ones another episode of this kind."

     -- "Stupidity is Punished Hard"
https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=91409